~lizziMarie

It's not about dying

It's about being alive,

It's not about resistance to pain,

It's about the inability to cry,

It's about bringing yourself,

Back from by the edge,

It's about balancing yourself,

So you don't fall from the ledge,

It's not about becoming someone else,

It's about hanging on to your image,

It's not about being brave,

It's about hiding your lack of courage,

It's not about dragging others down,

It's about standing alone,

It's not about fitting in with others,

It's about being on your own,

It's not about the wounds,

It's more about the scars,

It's not about the knives,

The razors and glass shards,

It's not about being open,

It's about keeping deadly secrets,

It's not really about the bruises,

The burns, the scratches and cuts,

It's about feeling again,

Knowing you're not a machine,

It's about purging the body,

And no longer feeling unclean,

It's about seeing the stars through a ceiling,

About believing that things can turn around,

It's about feeling hopeless and miserable,

Feeling lost and never being found,

It's about being inside a fantasy,

That you created in your mind,

It's about hearing all the hidden things,

And seeing through the blind,

It's about controlling all your actions,

Proving what you can do,

It's about letting yourself go sometimes,

When no one will worry about you,

It's not about dying,

It's about being able to feel,

It's about being fake,

And pretending that you're real.

.......

By: "Akasha Wolf" (Becki)